I think I'm onto something.

I am pretty sure I have figured out where I want to be as far as size goes. I want to be able to be around kids without having the fear that one of them is going to point and go "that lady is fat". Yep, that's where I want to be. Mackenzie is not even 2 yet and already she has quite the personality so I could see her punching a kid in the face for talkin bout her mama. ;)
On a serious note, I have anxiety and depression issues which make it very hard for me to function on a day to day basis and I have physical problems that make it hard for me to be active. I have sucked it up and worked through some of the worst pain in my life, almost mirroring labor or kidney stones. Why do I do it to my body? Because I need to get this weight off before I go insane. Being around people is a struggle for me no matter what but being the size I am makes it 50 times harder for me because I feel like no matter how much I try to blend in I don't, I stick out like a sore thumb. So when you put everything together this weight loss journey is very hard and I hope you all know how much I appreciate the support from each of you. It is not easy to drop weight in any situation but it is especially hard when you have nobody there, I've gone that route before and failed miserably. I am not on a diet, I am changing my life.