Not in the mood.

Just going to post my weight and what I wrote to a friend.
314.0lbs
I feel like a water balloon the last week, I honestly am about to have an emotional breakdown because I still don't know what's going on with my body (referring to numbness in my hands and legs) and then finding out my damn IUD is MIA yesterday didn't help. I'm trying so hard and I feel like I'm failing, I want to give up. I just want all this stress to go away and I want to be under 300lbs damn it.

Fell off the wagon but jumped back on!

So I know I didn't weigh in last week or post at all but it was because we had company. I ate many things I shouldn't have but it was worth it because it was yummy, it wasn't worth the poundage I gained but I'm proud to say I worked it back off. I weighed in Thursday of last week and I was 316ish then two days later weighed again and was 314ish. Well I just re-weighed and I am back down into the 310's To be exact I am 310.6, although that is UP .2 lbs from my last weigh in posted I am very proud of myself because I had only reached 310 due to the stomach virus I'd had. I have not been doing the 30 day shred but I do 75 punches a night and jog in place for a little while. I am really wanting a treadmill but my mother will not hand hers over even though it has not been touched in at least 5 years and is sitting in a closet. Oh well. I am wanting to get back into my harder workouts but right now there is something wrong with my body where my hands, legs, abdomen and feet are numb so I don't want to push my body too hard right now. Since my guests left I have returned to eating smaller portions and eating when I am hungry until I am no longer hungry but not completely full. I have a friend from online working on a meal plan for me because I really think it will be a huge help to not only me but my husband as well (Thank you Amanda K :D)
I am also getting my Mirena out, not only because I want another child sooner than expected but because I think it may help with my weight problems (from what I have researched it can make it very difficult to drop weight while on Mirena). So on Tuesday I am going to get it out and to talk to my doctor about TTC. I am hoping to get more weight off before we conceive our next child and depending on how my husband feels may even use a form of contraception for a few months.
So here's to another new start!

Late on my weigh in

So today I forgot to weigh in this morning so I just did it.
310.4lbs! Thank you to the lovely stomach bug that I had. So I have now met my first goal!!!!!!

Here's the weights it took to get here:
325.8lbs 1/5/2011 START
324.6lbs 1/12/2011
319.0lbs 1/19/2011
319.0lbs 1/26/2011
318.6lbs 2/2/2011
317.4lbs 2/9/2011
318.4lbs 2/16/2011
314.0lbs 2/23/2011
313.4lbs 3/2/2011
310.4lbs 3/9/2011 FIRST GOAL MET

Granted it took me 3 months to get there but I am damn proud of myself.

Picture Day.

This month there was no changes with my body that I could see but I took the pictures anyways to show myself I need to work harder. Also because I promised myself I would take pictures no matter what every 5th of the month. That's okay because now that I'm almost completely better I am going to resume my workout next week.

Month 2

Month 3


Month 2

Month 3


Month 2

Month 3

Weigh in.

313.6
So that is .4 lbs making my total weight drop 12.2lbs
Although this was after I ate my breakfast because I forgot to weigh before I ate, so I may weigh again after nap time. I am also going to the doctor this afternoon so we will see what the doctor scale says to me.

Now this means that I am 95% not going to make my first goal but you know what, I'm okay with that. I just have to get back on track as soon as I am all better.